Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Blog crisis of faith

Here's the thing: I love blogs. I love reading them. And in some ways, I love writing them.

However, the ones I read every day and truly love are the ones that are written by people (mostly women, but a few men here and there) who are completely open and honest. They post their kids' names and photos and they are not anonymous at all. They even write about very difficult, personal subjects. These are the blogs I adore.

I want to be one of those bloggers. I am very open by nature. I don't just mean extroverted. I like to share everything - good and bad. I always feel like talking about sensitive stuff might help someone else who is struggling.

But because of the nature of my husband's job (not to mention, my husband's private personality in general), I cannot have a blog like that. I've attempted to be an anonymous blog of sorts. I don't use real names or locations. But I always feel like I'm not telling the whole story. I always feel like I have half a blog.

Part of me would like a place to share photos of my family with other family members and faraway friends. There's another part of me who would like to reach a bigger audience about what it is like to raise a gifted, but quirky, child. I know I have a voice that might help people.

Although I did not attend Blogher, I read about all the scary situations where bloggers have been targeted by trolls and have had privacy violated. This concerns me as I have had stalkers before in real life.

I don't know what to do!